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So this is going to be the main hub for uploading all of my artwork including the noncensored ones. Sometime after winter break, I will post all my current Patreon exclusives on here as a treat for those who followed me over to dA. This will only be effective for the Patreon posts that are recent. After I update dA, I will resume the tiers, but again, the older formerly restricted artwork will still be available to view on here and on Patreon.

As a supporter of free speech, I condemn tumblr for making this irrational decision based on one person’s heinous crime punishing those who abide law. Though porn has become a spammy problem on there, it doesn’t mean you should punish individuals who want to upload porn or talk about it amongst their peers. It’s the algorithmic pornbot sites that are the problem if I have a problem with porn at all. Of course, the issue here is infinitely more problematic than that. It is an act of evil, which unfortunately hurt the victim and a community that generally condemns the act because let’s lump normal people in with pedophiles. But I digress. You’re here. I’m here. Let’s art.

I got the transphobic call out, I got the pedophila call out, now I got the racism call out. Dude, I just want to make art. Nothing is about you. No one is going out of their way to offend you. If you don’t like it, block. I’m sick and tired of people calling other people out for doing nothing. And it’s the same mentality. “Oh, honey, you complain when someone calls you out for being wrong. Victim complex! Racism! Transphobia! Homophobia! Pedophila! Misogyny! Fuck you!” And these people think they’re in the right somehow? And by not adhering to their lunatic political rhetoric gets you automatically labeled as an idiot among the above mentioned. It’s the same lame ass conversation riddled with allegations with no evidence, hastened insults that don’t make sense structurally in a sentence, and full on using hostile language instead of, “I disagree. I think this sends a harmful message etc.” and then I would reply, “I’m sorry this offended you. It was not my intention. However I will not be taking it down because I believe in freedom of expression and also believe that how you view it is subjective.” If they were polite then they should just block me or say, “Hey sorry, I can’t support you bc I don’t ‘feel’ it’s right and I disagree with your ideology.” See. No problems there. That’s a civilized way to deal with it, not 15 century witch hunts where the church flays and dismembers people in order to get them to admit something they did not do because of noncritical thinking lunatics.

No one is going to read this, but it's up for reference just in case. I've noticed my skills wane from time to time. It is very important as an artist to draw consistently, something I have put off for a long time because of personal issues. But long story short, this is affecting me and the effectiveness of my drawings. I would like to thank those who follow me and support me knowing that everyone develop skills at different times. I am nearly 26 years old and have been drawing since I was 5, and when looking back, you can see that I have improved, as with anyone who has practiced their trade. However, professionally speaking, I do not possess the skills to draw on demand. This is something I hope to learn once I get back to school as I am majoring in Fine Arts and Illustration. I have a tendency to look at other people and wonder how they learned to draw from scratch at a professional level in the span of 5 years and I cannot, even though I have been drawing for over 20 years. It is quite embarrassing. I think I am a good artist, but I don't think I am a great artist. I struggle with expressions and caricatures (I prefer realism), something that is in high demand right now in the digital art scene. I struggle in class as I get distracted by other students and worry about how could improve more than me, as I do here and other places sometimes. I have depression and anxiety, so the lack of interest to draw really exacerbates my preexisting low-self esteem and vice-versa. Sometimes I think it is so unfair, but that's what we get when we choose to compare ourselves to others. I hope that one day I can overcome this illness and draw things that people will like, while enjoying myself while doing it.

I started a new tumblr where I will feature some of my art. To be honest, it's been really slow here, and I was wondering if you'd be interested in supporting my art on a different layout (I found that tumblr tends to pick up a lot faster). As for my cosplay, I don't have a tumblr for that yet. I was on hiatus, but I'm starting to pick up again little by little. Hint: I'm revamping my B&B with latex sheeting. If you want to check it out, please follow at odessart.tumblr.com/

I finally was able to make it to AX this year. I brought Rosemary with me. I wished I could have gone a few more days because for something like that, one day just doesn't cut it, you know? I was able to hang out with an awesome group of people, be a co-panelist and taste Creamy Melon Soda for the first time. I'm going to try to get some cosplay pictures up soon. Right now I'm working on Margaery Tyrell if you don't already know. I will have her ready by Comic Con for sure. Yes, Comic Con. Did I tell you how my awesome sister got us passes for two days? We tagged teamed for them. My shit luck wasn't going to help me, so I employed my sister, who proved again that I could never get into the Comic Con on my own, but who cares, my sister got me passes!